Just Exhausted
A YT creator looked at some of my videos after I made a comment to their post with an absolutely adorable zine about her cat. She asked if I do plein air every day? No. I try to create something every day, but I will admit that sometimes life is a bit too much even for this little mental health practice I do.
It is even in my therapy notes lately. I am not depressed. I am tired, soul weary, emotionally exhausted, flat, mind numbing fatigue,...
I think a lot of people have this base line of stress that is higher than our threshold because of world events. Then add to it our own piles of stress, for me a post-infection fatigue syndrome and it is a lot.
Why share? What to do about this? Is there something positive I can do?
I saw a science communicator in Philly post an arts and craft get together that focuses on adults getting together to make drawings, posters, zines, etc. on issues around climate change. I asked about a template for hosting a craft event like that. She did not have one. She was tired too. I got it. She did share one for a poster that she does and I can use that. It is a great template for community events to share science knowledge. She admits, it is getting people to come that is the biggest hurdle for this.
We are all tired. I want to try to host something locally though.
I sit here trying to come out of a mini-freeze moment as I try to get a lot done in a short time. Things that rely on people, not me, doing things. Navigating that is never easy and if not done, done right, on time, it is a reflection of me. Always has been always will be. Fun. I freeze when I have to human now because of this.
Some crochet bag like projects with cotton yarn. Three for bottles of various sorts, one soap holder and a dog bag holder that has an unfortunate color choice...
A couple weeks ago, crochet got me out of freeze. Last weekend, shelves with some building materials that I have. Last week ink sketches of a sheep to help a charity in Ireland that I volunteer for. Yesterday, a walk in the woods locally with Fern. Right now, writing is what I am turning to. Here is this newsletter. I was thinking about the creative things I can do to calm this body and to reassure me that I am safe and can not be frozen.
I am curious to know what people to to help make them feel safe. To move forward in a positive way. To not freeze. To not be so so so tired. Is it a creative practice? Is it exercise? Is it socializing?